I was having a lazy start to this morning and I said to my husband "Am I a bad person if I am missing absolutely *nothing* from my commitments list?". All those things I do, volunteering, running around after children, etc etc. All those things that got stopped when the virus took over - I am not missing any of them.
He didn't think I was a bad person. I think he's enjoying the plus sides too.
I think this shut down thing has really crystalised what I want to be doing with my time. A lot of it I have to do (running kids around, and I don't mind this as I know it'll have an end date). A lot of it I don't have to do, and it's been hanging around my neck heavily.
So I've started to remove myself from some places that I don't need to be. Still a lot to go, but I'm getting there. I feel so guilty!
Today I spent time working on a large UFO that is seeming to take such a long time. But it's getting there.
How has your day been? Our state has now released playgrounds from lockdown. I spent so many hours at playgrounds with my little ones, seems like an age ago. Truth be told, I didn't love playgrounds. But you do these things to keep them happy and when we had the shop, a daily trip to the playground before lunch and a nap (for the babies, not me!) was a constant thing. I would have hated to have had to deprive my little ones for all that time.
So each week we are allowed a little more back. Soon they are talking about allowing us sport. I don't think it'll be for a few weeks though, which is fine with me because I'll then have to do the all day netball mother thing (and I enjoy that even more than I do playgrounds!).
Till tomorrow!
I'm hearing every word you are saying, and nodding my head with you.
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